Let's Try This Again...

Let's do this again.....it is diet time...AGAIN.

I am pretty over this "weight loss" journey.  It has been quite a battle, especially the past few years for me.

I gained a lot of weight with my pregnancy with Andrew, but did, a pretty good job of getting the majority of the weight off when I returned to work.  A year and a half later, when I had Rebecca, I never really got the wright off and decided in Jan. of 2012 that I was determined to lose some weight. I hit the gym and watched what I ate really well. I started Zumba and the weight started to melt away. I lost 45lbs in a few months...and it was done right! ---no weird diets, or starving myself, just being much more cautious with foods and working out...and I was pretty obsessed with my regiment.  Rebecca was 16months old, I felt (and looked) ;) good, so it seemed like the perfect time to get pregnant again. I hadn't gained any weight with the pregnancy, but when I went into labor preterm and lost the baby, it really affected me psychologically, physically and emotionally.

I completely stopped my workout routine and didn't watch what I ate at all. Within 3 months, I was right where I was earlier in the year.  I then decided to do something about it. I joined a group called Stroller Strides and began a workout regiment again and slowly began watching my caloric/carb. intake. I slowly  lost about 35lbs. but most important began to really feel good about myself.  I was on the road to getting back to myself again.  David and I decided it was time to get pregnant again. I had gained about 8lbs. this pregnancy.

This last Thursday, 3 and a half weeks after I lost our baby, I stepped on the scale....of course I was up nearly 20lbs from the last time I was on that scale (in my Dr. office) ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!? Again, we are here???

I started a new workout regime, but definitely don't feel like myself. I took extra time today to clean and portion out fruits, and veggies. Made hard boiled eggs, some chicken breast ect.....hopefully this will help jump start something because this is crazy.....clearly my body reacts very negatively to stress. I need to get a handle of this before it becomes a lifetime battle.