Past few days...

I have had wonderful visits from friends and family and have been able to play with my beautiful children, nieces and nephews one on one. I truly appreciate everyone who has slowed down and stopped to say something.

Andrew has been playing "dress up' and the afternoon I got home, we played in the rain. These kids help me smile daily.

Yesterday I got out of the house and went with David to take my Andrew to school. When we got to his school he said that he wanted both mommy and daddy to take him to class, and had a big proud smile walking to his class with each of us holding a hand. I know it's small, but it made me so happy.  Kids are so smart and they know I have been down, but I am trying my hardest to not let it effect our special time together and reassure them how much I love them.

The "outing" wasn't a total success. David and I went to the store and for a split moment, I forgot that this has happened. Passing the baby bouncers at Costco, I thought to myself, "oh we'll need one of those since we got rid of ours" then reality sunk in and I melted down.  Went on with the day and taking baby steps again and I was reminded of what a process this is going to be.  

Our baby nephew Dominic came over with his daddy and older sister Destiny last night and I brought out some baby toys that my kiddos loved when they were little. It warmed my heart to see him enjoying them and brought back sweet memories.